Who am I?

"Who knows what to write when it comes to yourself. Some people say no one knows you the way that you know you, but I think that's a lie. Maybe because it's so easy to lie to yourself. A very wise friend of mine said that people always write about half of who they are and about half of who they want to be. So I'll take his lead and tell you who I'd like to be...I'd like to be sincere, romantic, honest, well traveled, well educated, open minded, spontanious, trustworthy, successful, giving, a good friend, a good lover, a good sister, a hard worker and a person who appreciates life. I'm not sure if I'm all of this yet, but maybe one day.."

I read the above today on someones personal profile on another website and it had me thinking...Nadege do you really know yourself?

I agree...sometimes when you are too close to something its hard to see it fully. However, I always pride myself on being able to be honest with myself...knowing my faults...being proud of the couple of good things I possessed and understanding all the room I still have to grow...but if that vision in itself is blurry...how can I grow into the person I wish to be as the person above says? I know I think too much...but perhaps the quote above hit a little too close to home.

Recently I encountered a situation with someone I thought I knew only to realize I didnt know them at all. They lied about everything...but then I wonder...perhaps those lies are simply the person unhappy with their current situation...perhaps the image they have built is a way of trying to get to the person they want to be?

so who am I was wondering all day? I always hated answering that question...so I think I will take the approach mentioned in the quote.

I wish to be true...I wish to be honest and give the very best my mind and heart has to offer...I hope to contribute. I wish to be someone who cares about their world and who gives back. I want to make a difference when it matters and when it doesnt. I want be fearless. I want to not fear failure, yet constantly strive for success. I want to possess knowledge...of good things and bad things. I want to absorb the very best this world has to offer and not worry about tasting some of the not so best along the way. I want to be a good friend. One that my friends know they can come to without fear of ridicule. I want them to know though I may laugh at them...a lot...that it's all in fun. I want to be able to have a positive impact in the lives of those that I encounter. I want to be open to learning, sharing and giving. I want to be a good woman to a deserving man(ok...he will never truly deserve me...but he is only human...lol)...Oh yeah...I almost forgot...I want to be rich...yes...I want to be loaded. I want to have money to get the things I want and need. I want to be able to help out the people that matter to me in every by being able to offer moral, spiritual, emotional and/or financial support...I want to be open to learning and growing and once again...so yes...I want to be honest, funny, crazy, unpredictable, loving, and caring. and oh yeah....RICH!

Ahhh...the sweet sweet lessons men teach us...

I never thought I would be one of those people that talked of the vast differences between men and women...I thought people were people...but was I wrong...what I am slowly learning in my old age...yes people are people..but women are people with sense...and men...well...they are a whole other story! (Perhaps I am being a bit hasty in this...because we women have our issues too..but oh well).

Since my friend Onyi stalks me constantly about writing in my blog(this is an attempt at curbing my A.D.H.D. by starting something and finishing it), I figured I'd humor her and get some release in the process. wonder if eventually I can get a book out of this(you know Im always thinking of the next business venture)


So what shall I talk about? Well this past weekend, I learned 3 lessons from the opposite sex. Not sure how to put them in perspective yet, but here they go!

Men are calculating(to think I thought we had them beat in this category)...men sure know how to make a simple situation worst(I learned this from watching that Beyonce movie...obssesed. Unfortunately, or humorously, I had the pleasure...or perhaps the accident, of seeing the Beyonce movie this weekend.)..and finally men are utilizing facebook to hookup...I thought that was suppose to be a friendly space to connect and stay in touch...whats up with the.."I like your vibe, your look and wanna get to know you better messages"..

I technically should elaborate on these 3 lessons...but im getting old...and Im tired...so if you have any questions...ask me...now..let me go sign up for Twitter...yet another thing to comfuse me.

Alrighty now..

I have a diary!!! who would have thought it would take me 27 years to actually want to put my thoughts down...and not only that...for the world to see... Anyways...Hopefully this is a fun experience for me. I have lots to do today, but I think I'll focus the day on trying to get Metro or AM New York to give me a column. So off to stalking the man I go!



I'll be back later...